Wondering....

Well, I am back from my travels and now going throu a wondering time of my life. When I left I had 2 jobs that kept me very busy....but as any one really knows me I liked being busy and hectic...that is I! If I am not doing one thing I am doing the other. I was at a home care case and doing great at it,( 9 months...and grant it I wasnt going to stay much longer...my choice) the next thing I know is my younger sister brings this homely, ok...her friend in to cover my vacation, nd the next thingyou know and I am out. And it really freaking blows my mind how blood can help a stranger aka friend out over a sister. I guess sometimes in life peoples priorities are different and what is inportaint to one person is flybouent to another. But I guess I am very glad for this slow down period in my life.....It helps me to have time off and think and slow down and enjoy life. Years ago I worked less.....had a pup tent and went camping a lot. I could give a f@ck what any one thought.....It was happy and free. Then I moved up in life.....worked had....got a RV and wondered if I was keeping up with the Jone's......our boat got bigger and I thought I was.....I travel and all is Great with the world.....Now I am going slow down .....climb back in the pup tent and appreciate me being Me. Work on my gardens....flowers...vegetables....and life.....Happy Trails!!!.....(spell check not working nor is pic, UGh)

This am I sat in the chair you see having my morning coffee and cig. I was so enjoying the view, smells and sounds around me. It seemed as if overnight te snow melted and it was warm out.....I notice the buds on the tree that seemed so far from sight the day before...I watched the fog rise above the river and disburse right beore my eyes...Dare not I blink for I might miss something. Tomorow am shall be my last day here for awhile.....The owner comes home! Drat I was beginning to enjoy my self, actually I have been the whole week. I don't want to go home....I like being by my self- Toilet seat down...Paper rolls the way I like it....no farts but my own to deal with. I really want my own place....after more than my whole life of living with some one....and never living on my own....I want to experiance that. It may sound strange to some but I went from my parents house when I was 15 to my sister's....and when I turned 16 it was with {J}. He was young to; now as I look back ,17 and need I say much sweeter then to me than now. We seemed to have a lot back then to hold us together, Now we seem to have just "habbit" of being together all these years....I want to leave...but yet I want to stay. When I think about the reasons for leaving...indepent...dancing...skinning dipping....hottub...romance. Going to a hotel and having some one join me in the pool, hot tub....dance floor, sitting by a campfire at night, watching a sunset....taking acruise....having a second home, the wanting outways the staying...Don't get me wrong I love {J},,,but after 30 years its gets to be the love of family...not of a lover if you get my drift. And as much as his stuborn ass refuses to see this right now.... He knows I am right. Hummm so what chapter in my life will be next? Things that makeyou go hummm......Happy Trails!!!

My Whinny Mood

Well, today was another busy day. I was really starting to wine today. { J } managed to give me his cold. I tried to teach him to cough into his arm, and not his hand. He doesn't realize if he coughs in his hand and then does not wash it, and touches, doorknobs, phone ,remote that I shall catch it. Usually I don't because I load up on garlic, but lately I have been slacking. It really sucks being sick,,I don't take a day off for me, I don't have time for that. My next day off is Sunday, and plans are made. My sister, my friend really hates when I do meme's. She wants me to write about life,,,I think she is really looking to see if I am happy and got laid,,lol. But right now I am in my whinny moods,,,I work to hard, I want to have a small house and a pool.....today as I was delivering mail I noticed this cool metal gate going down a driveway,,,made a note to my self- get a gate. For all those dreaming about a white picket fence- I have that,,,now I want a gate. My birthday is coming and I am dreading with a capital D, of getting older- I don't want to work all the time and miss out on the fun things....But can't have them with out the money so where do I find the "Media okra',,,I hate my laugh lines...and my 5 tone hair color, and that my feet are too big. Guess I just need a deep down huge hug! For my birthday we are going to the beach,,,,4 days to dream....Happy Trails!!

two days...lots of yadda.

Ok,,So I am sure by now everyone has figured out I like scenery and the rustic look, or pictures that would make a great postcards, perhaps someday I might do that. I really would love to enlarge a lot of my shots and open a gallery to display them. Yesterday we brought Jenny up to the "plane station", before we left her house she was taking numerous shots to show her Moma'. I Had her schedule or wrong, she got back from Paris at the beginning of the week, now she was off to see family in Dallas and take in the Jazz festival in New Orleans, Dam how I wish I could have packed my bag and headed out with her. Instead I found my self up in Albany--{ Bigger City= Tons of stores} Only problem there was {J} got tired and cranky after he started to shop and found what he wanted and patience level with me was at a 1,,,I hate shopping with him. I grabbed first bathing suit I saw and liked and hoped it fitted. It did and looked great,,I guess if I had more time I would have bought to much any how. Today was a little chilly than yesterday by about 20 degrees. I headed out to help my sister in law set up her blog, Check it out to the places I journey to, Her blog is there,,..(mental moment forgetting the name......Live, laugh.love. I will get it right when I add it so check it out. Went up to the "home" today,,,with in a few seconds I could tell my patient wasn't right. I asked her aide if she has been like this long,,and when she toileted her 2 hours ago,,she almost feel asleep on toilet, same as now. Almost on border line comatose,,[ I might exaggerate, but to me its a big deal], I asked the nurse to check BP...seemed normal to her...high to me thou...I asked her to check her O2 level,,,,that was very , very low. She called Dr. and ambulance,,,then I find out she has a UTI,,and is dehydrated. How stupid is that. You always give extra fluids then,,at least 80z.in a freakin day. It really ticks me off. I asked her roommate how she slept last night and she said " I think she is in shock from always having someone very attentive and now trying to adjust to not "I wish I could take her home and have her live out her last days as special. To me it is very sad that as we are up there in age and close to death,,,we become a number and less of a person. But not every one is like that,,just a small percentage that a lot are not aware about. The door is closed- curtains draw. If any one was to just go to a "Home" and watch,,,sit back and observe they would find all the faults....I keep trying to find all the plus there is and I know there is a lot maybe if they weren't so short staffed things would be so much better. I am off again on the morrow,,,last day to my weekend--Happy Trails!!

updates

This shot is of NYC. Down at the port. My parents grew up in NYC...in Brooklyn. My one Grandfather had a store,,but due to my Grandmother giving away most of the stuff for free they sold that business. I can see how I have inherited my Grandmother's heart of helping people. No one yet has answered the Situation Sunday,,,So I shall go back and fill in my answers. I have received a lot of good knowledge from over at Rose's site,,,,http://bloggertalk.net it is a very good site for gainning pc smarts...and finding a lot of interesting blogs. I also am working on making some buttons there,,,should be great to see how they come out. I am sure my adventures at the home might bore some people,,,but if they help to just open your eyes before you put a love one away,,,and you check out the home really good,,,,then I have succeeded in helping----Last night the state was there doing their audit of the place,,,no one was on our floor during supper and they really should have been there then,,,,1 nurse from a agency and 1 CNA were in the dinning room during meal time.....all the regular aides disappeared,,,about 9 people didn't get to eat anything,,,or drink anything,,,sitting helping my patient I could hear this one lady with crippling arthritis's begging for help,,,I couldn't stand it any longer,,,I got up and gave her a drink,,,,put her food closer to her,,cut up her sandwich so she can eat some of it. It totally pissed me off. Today I hope the state is still there,,,and I shall take advantage of the number they post.....On another note---Spring is hiding from us here in the North East!! The sun is out but it is COLDDDD. The high at the most will be 35 today,,,My little sister Midgy is still getting lots of snow up in Rome, NY. Moving from Minnesota to Rome,,,the winters were much milder in the west than here this year. Enjoy the sun at least,,,it will go back into hiding on Wednesday!!! Happy Trails!!!

PS. Check out Capt. Bill on a raft. The Veteran raising money for a shelter in Florida for Veteran's. He is living on a raft for a month to raise money. And eating what he catches,,,some days are tougher than others for him. Check it out and help him if you can,,,and spread the word about him. http://veteranshaven.com

Manic Monday

Today was definitely a 'Manic Monday"....I forgot to set my alarm,,,Ugh. I awoke on my own--stretched and wondered what time it was...7am. Shit I had to be at PO in 30 minutes. That wasn't going happen- Arrived @ 8:15. And if being late wasn't enough it was the beging of the new month,,,which ment lots of bills and Everything- Dam I wasn't prepared. Around 10:30 am my phone rang---Am case I would have been on if not where I was....Patient down and couldn't get up---Great,,,,X -hubby there to help...{ 94 years old} I told them to call 911. I couldn't leave---That saying comes to mind " When it rains,it pours" I couldn't wait for this day to be over,,,,I was playing beat the freakin clock all day. I got home @ 7pm,,,{ J } was in a meeting...and I had the whole place to my self---And it was clean,,,,The cleaning fairies came when I was gone---What a relief to come home,,,have my space with out having to worry about anything. I putted around doing the extras,,,which I never have time for--- It made up for the day,,,,no more sorry to be me crap,,,,life was good again! Content as my Pooch....{for the moment}........Happy Trails!!!!

I have a great cute Dog!!!! "Pretty Pooch"